Silhouette Of Her Present State Without Him

She told her about the feelings that were encircling her again. She told about the stability she was losing again only because of him. It was like a reunion of her past.
She was willing to slap her but balancing her emotions she told her,"You aren't a schmuck. At least learn a lesson from my experience. You have your studies to deal with, god damn it..."
After hearing all this she sketched her problem,"But I don't know what to do. Everytime I come into my senses, everything around me becomes explicit, there somewhere I come to see him. It's not my fault, di. It's a little lesser than before. I don't spend my nights crying. Days and nights are good. But what is not good is 'me'. I've been disturbed unintentionally. You need to save me... I beg you..." She stopped. Her eyes wet and red. Her boldness suddenly turned into a childish nature. She became a bairne who wanted to shed her tears...
Her di said,"Don't cry. You are my strong baby. You are the one who can do anything and from whom I've learnt a lot. Calm down. You can live on your own."
"Ohh! Shut up di. I know I can live on my own. But to live I need..."
"Him? Huh// You've gone nuts. You are not understanding. Go get your mind fixed. I may suggest go and get some distraction..."
She heard it very clearly. "I don't need any distraction.
I don't need anybody to talk.
I don't need anyone in this world.
I don't need any mirror to tell me who am I.
I don't need any diversion or company.
I just need him." The pitch of her tone lowered and she knelled down. Her sis hugged her and they both started crying. Her di now whispered in her ear,"Ask for anything else. I'll get you anything. You just... "
She cut her in between and said,"Get me him...!" She closed her eyes. Let her tears roll down and slept in her sister's arms.