Rickshaw Without Meter .!

Sometimes life’s rickshaw drops me at a place where there are millions of people connected with me in one or another way. And often it drops me at a place where there’s no one but when I look around and explore that peaceful place I find one person…

You see,

        Life’s rickshaw works according to just one person. The rickshaw is of your life and the driver is you only. It travels on your wish. Wherever you want to go, it takes you there…

My life’s rickshaw leaves me at a known place. I often complain about my feelings which always get hidden under the shadows of my thoughts. But this time, the first time I realize that there is always going to be one person with me who was there before also. It was just the lack of acknowledgement that didn’t let me recognize the presence of that person. Without whom I am nothing. And now with whom I can unfold my feelings and make an order out of the chaos…

Just one person……’Mother’ J

“So everyone out there you see how your rickshaw can lead you anywhere and that too at a perfect place costing you nothing because it’s your rickshaw without meter …”

Till forever....

Magic?
I think I believe in Magic....

Otherwise  who would have  thought  that I would meet such Wonderful people.
Love is what binds us...
Trust is what makes us strong..

Whatever  roads we may take....
WE'll always meet and come together in the end...

I'm Here

''A Girl like me...
Hmmm..... A Girl like mee....!!''

She sings the last lines of the song and then we listen to the recording. For any other person it would be difficult to diffrentiate between our tones but I know HER voice as clearly as she knows MINE.
The song ends but we are still laughing our heads off, Sharing this moment of happiness together........


I remember that moment as I listen to the recording again and again. I
pick up the phone, wanting to call you and tell you that ''I miss You.'' !!
But I don't. I lack courage, you see.

There is a lot that I wish I could say to you and a lot that I want to hear from you. Usually we dont talk much,
 we just share the beautiful moments.
Back then when we were always together, I was waiting eagerly for the day when you would go away. 
Now, when we are never together, I die for your company, your presence, your love.

It all seems so unfair. Fourteen years together and now I don't even get a week with you. Our jamming sessions, our rain dance, our long walks in the moonlight, our novels, our Badminton-Racquet-mike, our Stupid-fights, our Photo-shoots..... I could go on forever.
Describing our relationship can be difficult. The more you try to understand it, the more deep it becomes.
Just want you to know that if you ever need someone who loves you more than you love yourself, I'll forever BE here.

UNCERTAIN TIMES...!!

Its been few years,
Not many worries and no tears,
Days went on smoothly,
There was hardly any night gloomy.
My lips smile at uncertain times,
Don't know why...
Maybe because those moments,
are a kind of bind.
That will remain with me,
throughout the sands of time.
The thing unforgetable obviously,
Was that etched night,
Moreover that flight,
In which two stars remained,
Cosely knit, unknown,
Of what they really did.
It was just a humble bliss,
That faded of with time.
Like i just said bye and planted a kiss,
Well on those pretty memories,
Of that funny trip.
Even this funny word reminds me,
Of another night
That drew me crazy,
Everything hazy,
Answering to few questions...
I obviously felt uneasy.
I did somehow,
What a total wow!
But......
I can't really open up,
Because things will get more toughen up.
It needs abundant courage,
To close those memories of a friend.
Because i really do hate,
When i smile at uncertain times.
People ask "why are u smiling?"
But to my subtleness
I go back in those memories,
And smile even more......
Shutting my body's all doors!!
At uncertain times,
Some uncertain smiles.
Nothing much..........

DRIVING HUNGER...

A moment  back everything was perfect,
I was happy....I was satisfied
but in a jiffy....
Everything went tasteless,
Seemed as if a huge tsunami came
and took away everything with it.
What has happened?
Where did the satisfaction go?
Am I not happy?
I feel like having a lump in my throat,
What is  troubling me??
Seeing others doing better,
Or seeing yourself doing bad.
I don't know......
But im getting closer to find an answer.
I called my friend,
She seemed happy
But i know she's not,
Everything went upside down.
Mom says"its okay",
One should not fill the tummy at once,
some hunger left is good,.
I can feel that hunger now,
These words are soothing
But if u look back for a second,
and realize what you've missed,
Its a bad feeling i must say,
Even my friend has this hunger,
Maybe more than me,
For the coming years
I wish her all the best!!
To my self.......
I take whatever comes my way ,
But i hope and want,
May this hunger drives me
To a point where I get satisfaction
And I know that place is not so far
As I write this, .
I hold the pen even stronger,
I feel the heat coming out,
The heart beats faster,
I do not know why,
but it just simply does so....
Somebody switched on the fan
I think the wind has come
And i need to run!!

The journey from TRUST to BETRAYAL !

The phone rang..... it was Maira

           " Hurry Up ! The Park in the Downstreet.... Your intentions weren't wrong. You were right . "

And the line got cut ... Without wasting even a sec , I just left.

   Those 20 min in the car my heart would have beated nearly 200 times per minute ... and my whole body was vibrating as if m gonna get a mini heart attack !

  Soon I reached the park ... and searched for Maira .... and the moment I saw her ... her face spoke that these few minutes of my life are not going to be gud....

   She held my wrist ..... dragged me ... and took me to a strange spot where stood a huge tree with hollow trunk from one side . The view looked exactly like a movie location..

  Maira left my wrist and pointed her fingers towards the hollow part of the trunk ...

             As my one foot moved forward towards the tree ... my actions were accompanied by the increasing of my heart beats ....... " Dhak Dhak !! Dhak Dhak !!" ........ My fingers were crossed and only 1 thought was revolving in my mind that somehow Maira gets proved wrong ......

           But Maira won ! And then came the moment which ruined my life foreva !!

 

____It was my BEST FRIEND with my BOY FRIEND ..........................!!!!!!!__

 

It was the GIRL whom I knew since I was in 2nd std ....... who mattered more than a best friend to me..... who was my family when everyone left me.... who was the second name of TRUST to me ... who knew every single secret .. from my first crush till my first love...And see the coincidence ! ... She was the only girl I caught red handed with my FIRST LOVE......

         The two persons I TRUSTED at my best ....... BETRAYED me at their best !!

My world was over ........... finished ...... terminated !!!

 

         " I cried in front of you... used your shoulders to lie upon whenever I had a fight with him ... and you used to console me by saying  that he is only mine.. and no one can love him more than me ....... !! You knew na how much I loved him ... You knew I can evn die for him .. You knew na .... GOD DAMN IT !! You knew na... Then WHY ?.............. Everything was a lie ! Everythng was fake ! You both were fake ! This was the best betrayal of my life and enough to end my world . THANK YOU both for everything ! "

                 These were the last words I delivered to them before I left that place and this world forever ......

 

P.S.  Trust do not come with a Gurranty or Warranty Card ... Make sure if you keep it ... Its all on your own RISK !!

 

Life After Death

Lying down dead...
It's me solitary. Eyes open.
A hand comes but I can't perceive the touch because by the time I've been deprived of my senses. I am dead. My life is terminated...

My body weight from 45 kg reaches to not zero but .000_ _ _ some value...
Ahh ! My soul is still there. And then it rises, gets out of my body but feels gloomy as it won't get such a worthy cage again. :)
Bye Mansi ! I'll miss you !
It waits for my reply though knowing that now no Mansi exist...
It travels miles alone meeting various other souls. Makes new friends. It seems Mansi's effect is still not gone.It ends up at a door, turns back and gapes the earth and it's family mourning down there. Some are not crying but they are sad and proud at the same time.
The door opens and the soul gets into the heaven, the Hereafter. A purely figure waiting for the only soul specially starts staring it and then enunciates, " I'm glad to see you. My creation devised in my own shadow." The soul realizes the shadow an absolutely fine creation. Not the body but the mind.
"I am proud of your living. Down there, everyone is proud as you actualized your only wish. You did die for your motherland." The soul just can't express those delighted, pleased, buoyant feelings and quitely hugs the figure and sleeps in his lap as it's indeed very tired.
The figure caresses it and thinks,"Extraordinary death ! Mansi, you died but I assure you that your soul will live an eternal life after your death too..."
And there somewhere up in the sky amongst those stars, a star shines brightly after getting the figure's message and there Mansi smiled !